i have no idea why i eat so much tonight...i hate myself...I'm not going to count the calories because i will die inside if i do but i know in my gut it is almost 1000. so I'm going to find my stash of laxatives and take some before i go to bed so that I'll shit alot + i have to shit i haven't gone in three days cause I've been eating cheese sticks through out the day yesterday to get 300 exactly....I'm making a new plan and starting a new 10 day plan....i have to reach my goal

 

something else that aggravates me is the fact that i eat alot today and i never do and my mom complains non stop to me how I'm eating to much but yesterday when i got home my dad complained about i don't eat healthy and it should have nothing to do with weight and how i should eat more even though i don't but i should...bla bla bla and how half a meal at suppertime is not enough to live on...i can't make both of them happy so i making me happy by fasting having 100 calz tomorrow and working out 3 times. i deserve it.