its so aggravating to know that you can fall for a guy so fast. its actually really pathetic and because i have so low self esteem i will not allow my self to think they like me at all, even when its obvious they do...I'm always telling my self no remember when you were younger and thought the simplest hello and friendly hug meant they liked you then they would get embarrassed when you had a crush on them then make fun of you and call you big buluca...do you even remember that there is no way I'm letting you date till you reach 92 pounds...cause then your date able and not embarrassing. it sound very harsh but its true. any guy that does like you is settling because they have low self esteem though they tell you your beautiful your not..so smart-in up and don't eat that go for a power walk...skip rope...anything active...cant control you fingers from touching the cupcakes your mother just made...stay away and take a nap till it passes. just please Christina don't touch that....hell never like you.

 

on a positive note i have lost 7 pounds...I'm hoping tomorrow ill go on the scale and see 99 pounds and then the next day 98 and then the next 97 until one day in may i see 85..though i might look to skinny but hello skinny is beautiful...toned.gorgous. that's whats important and now with prom coming up i don't want to look on it and realize that i can't deal with the fact I'm over weight and through away every memory of prom which will happen. that's what happened in grade eight grad. i was such a fat pig. i would ware a skirt and the girls would lol at me or make sly remarks..stupid selfish bitches and half were chunky them selves. thanks t them i know I'm fat and one day with be way better then them.

 

for no i love you and food is evil and disgusting.

i love broccoli though.