oh gosh i had a panic attack today

i thought that my mom was going out past supper so i eat 3 peaces of cheese 4 crackers a a slice of mock low fat chicken=163 calories...

 

then my mother came home...i freaked but then again my mother decides to let me eat whatever i wanted..which was nothing

 

yes i succeeded another day of below 200 pounds

 

 

I'm so happy..right now

 

workout

100 push ups

100 crunches

100 jumping jacks

20 curl ups

20 leg lift

30 triceps dips

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yes OK so as you all know that I'm falling for my best friend Ian who has a girlfriend...and how I'm trying to ignore him and its going to hurt a lot to do but I'm not a home wrecker...and I'm not going to make him chose me over him...even if he use to like me and at that time i just didn't...i was with someone else...its so confusing.

 

anyways i tried ignoring him and he was going to  another party this Sunday but he decided to not go when he found out i was going to my other good friend Brock's party. he invited him self basically and he tells me that he has missed me and he can't understands whats wrong with me lately. He has no idea what so ever. he also doesn't want me hooking up with Brock's crack head friend bobby. it was a one time kiss that will never happen again but he has to act all mocho about it. he better make me my paper foggy if he come.

 

i miss him already

i had no idea that it would hurt this much to do the right thing...she better treat him right.