Heyy Baby Dolls

How are we doing tonight?

I feel on fire! I exercised for three hours today and burned everything off that i ate and then some. i just lovee that feeling. i know i can reach my GW by september. and i cannot wait for flordia or my new job. alittle worried about my cousins birthday party though. No dessert for me thank you! i will just have to try and eat as little as possible and ugh my grandpas bocce world series is tomorrow and maybe saturday. need to stay away from the nasty fatty greasy food.

i also managed to buy some fat burners diet pills even though i am not 18.

so now there are diuretics,laxs,diet pills and cal burner drinks hidden in my room. hopefully my madre doesn't find them.

this week is a good week bellas
remember tomorrow is a new day
think thin, stay stronggg
XOXO

Hey everyone :)
How's everyones day?!

I'm filled with a combination of emotions. Nervousness, anxiousness, confused, upset, excited.

Well, I started my partial ed aftercare program for my inpatient hospitalization today, and I'm done haha. I told my mom I'm not going back..I hated it! They upped my meal plan and were all bitches! On top of it, my dad came home and brought me flowers which was SO ackward (we haven't talked in 3 months) and I lost it, absolutly lost it. I can't live here anymore..I just can't do it. So instead of waiting to move to my grandmas in 2 weeks, I'm moving there on saturday..and ill be there for 2-3 months!

I'm so nervous, cuz I'm moving toi a completely diff state so I won't know anyone except my grandparents and my sister and nephew. But I'm excited to take a break from my stressful life here. I can't take it anymore.

Sorry for the rant. I'm just full of emotions. And I'm so torn about the whole situation with my dad..like we haven't talked in 3 months and I'm terrified to forgive him cuz I think he'll just hurt me again, but at the same time I'm so upset because I love him so much. I used to be daddys little girl growing up, and it kills me were not close anymore. :( so I wrote him a 5 pg letter andstuff that I'm gonna give him the morning I leave.

Okay..sorry tht was super long

<3

so its been a while, ive been on vacation----camping in Switzerland, retreats in Germany.....blah blah blah
sorry I havent been on so ive been so depressed latly, I dont know how to lose the weight. anyone have any
tips on not being hungry? I tried to make myself throw-up but I physicaly cant do it, anyone have any tips on
that either? im deparate....thanks for the support!

on top of all this, I am having friend issues, I know you guys can relate! :)

here they are...

HW: 115
LW:103
CW:105
Height:5'1
GW1:100
GW2:97
GW3:95
Age:15

i wa going to post a picture, so if anybody wants me too, jsut say.

 

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Hey, I'm Megan. I haven't been on LJ in a while, and I was in another group, but I got on today and it seemed to have vanished.
So I hope you guys don't mind me joining your crowd.
Anyway, these are my stats:
HW: 158
LW: 117
CW: 177.5
Height: 5'5
gw1: 115
gw2: 110
ugw: 105
as much as I want to be thin, i'm also scared.
I don't feel like taking measurements, but I know that I have that classic female figure, meaning ultra thin waist and child-bearing hips.
But not like gross fatty hips, don't get me wrong.  Just.. yeah. I think it's because of my small waist haha.  However, my chest has become smaller because of the weight I keep losing.
I remember when I was out of control way back then, and how I thought everything would be perfect at 135.
Grody..

Heyy Bellas
i'll make this short because i am baby sitting my lil bro.
how are we doing today?
its around 12 o clock and i am planning on not eating till hopefully 5
my stomach hurts though, but i'll do some sit ups so i'll feel better.
Going to flordia in alittle over a month, gotta lose weight by then.
100 100 100 100!
even if i wanted to eat i don't want to put anything in my mouth. i've just been having these feelings more and more. it doesn't matter how bad i want to eat i can't allow myself to. food will make me fat. i am basically living off fruits and vegtables
stay strong loves<3

hi...i'm new here. i wont tell you my name, because i want to keep my identity hidden. I currently weigh 105lbs, and hate myself. i'v collected together pictures or 'thinspo' in a diary and am recording my progress. I was originally posting to another ana group, but its sort of falling apart, so i went on the hunt for another place to get support. can someone please tell me the rules here and what i can and cant do, and what it is exactly that you all do here?

B x

I need help! Well really just advice or opinions on what all of you think!

Okay, so I just got of an impatient ed recovery program :/ and I'm being forced to do a partial hospitalization recovery program, which goes mon-fri from 8-3. For those two weeks I'm fucked :( I have no idea wht I'm gonna do, but I NEED to lose all this weight and fat :(

I'm thinking ill eat at the hospital so I can get the hell outta there! (Lol) and then purge the dinner my mom makes me eat. After that I'm moving to tennessee with my grandma, and ill be able to lose tons, because this time she'll be working all day till 9 pm. So I can skip a lot of meals and workout!

Soo, opinions?!

Mucho appreciated beautiful ladies :)

Hello my lovelys
how are we doing today?
Only had a salad today and its all i will have, just need to stay in my room for the rest of the night.
Exercised an hour and a half today and it felt goood.
I will reach my goal by september i know i can do it. i just need to keep saying it in my head. 100 100 100 100 Lbs!
going to flordia at the end of august so need to look amazing by then.
I also finally got a job so i will be busy during my hunger periods.
everything is falling to place =)
anyonee wanna be text buddies?
message for the digits
stay strong bellas <3

Thank god! I'm out of inpatient! Now I haveta get through 2 weeks of partial and ill be done. How's everyone been?

I love you all so much, and I've missed u like crazy :(

hey people...well okay so i've been binging 2 weeks solid...so fucking horrible

NO CLUE WHY EITHER?!

there is no point to this i'm so fat, i got back up to my recovery weight and i want to cut with my razor and just cut my fat off....i can't wait till i'm 18 than i can buy some diet pills and shit!
Well anyways i had my mom buy me some chocolate lax's & of course she misplaced them....idk i can't find any lax's that don't cramp, so idk i'm probably just gonna deal with the ones i bought and deal with the stupid cramps


anyways....i wanna know what fasts people are on, and what excersize routines they're on or how long you workout for in a day...how long you fast shit like that....it'll really help me :D

age: 16
cw: 210
hw: 220
lw: 172
gw: 185
fgw: 100

 hate food
i ate some yesterday and felt nauseated
thats a good thing but i hate food
food is gross 

I know I've been posting alot, I've just been alittle brain burnt over issues regarding family (aye..), school, & my minds tendency to get emotional over what I don't know... Weird, I know. I also know I can be alittle over-questioning. I'm sorry, I just get so entirely panicy... Anways: I feel threatened that my sister is trying to lose. I know people have to be supportive of their family, but once she saw my size 9's were baggy on me, she then started looking at me when I passed by her.. she looks right at my legs, & stares. I ask "what?" & she says "Nothin'." She's always had this sort of hatred towards me, I know, because my parents are more consious of me because of my history. But what I've done wasn't attentionally (sp?) done for attention but because I wanted to speak, But I couldn't. She also used to burn & break my things that I concidered special, she even one time said to me "in a playful manner" that (& I quote) "...Wouldn't've been born, I could've gotten everything I wanted *smile & glare*". To me, she's perfect. Even though I still love her though my mind tells me she doesn't, She's always had more, I dunno, this shine to her. She has this "I'm the shit" attitude. She's like the popular kid, & I'm me-the regular tomboy in the corner. She's always had people in the palm of her hand. She's always pretty. She has this confidence that I don't match up to. & She's always out going & included in everything. I don't go out with her simply cause of that. Not because I'm jealous of what she has, but because when I'm out with her, it's like she shoves me, it's like what the fuck, You give people who aren't blood the attention, then when we're home, I try to hug you & YOU shove ME off?...Actually every one of my siblings to do that, but I thought since she was my only full-sister, we'd be closer than this... I don't understand why she'd shove me away because I've always been the one that has the mental issues, i've always had people give me serious backburns, i HATE my skin litteraly & mentally, did I mention i'm not much of a people-person?
    All in all, I'm just afraid that that vibe I get from her wil get more intense. It's enough that I don't have much of a connection spark with my family, But what if the only person I look up to besides my mom, becomes my enemy?..Do you think she's competing with me, trying to lower me again?... I've been losing my appatite more & more...I restrict, But never have I gone from 8AM to 4PM with only 43 calories. I'm nauseous.
I'm sorry guys, But when something is making me cry, I NEED to get it out...writing doesn't help & therapy? I don't want to stress my mom..
I hate being the youngest...